Confessions : I abused my boyfriend

I use to be a bad girlfriend : I use to be abusive

a·bu·sive
extremely offensive and insulting.

Colossians 3:19

Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them.''

I know this says husbands in the scripture. But we live in a day an age where woman abuse. I use to be abusive verbally,emotionally mentally and physically abusive. I abused the person i said i loved. I tore him down. I belittled him. I made him feel small. He loved me. I ran him away because i called him out his name. All types of B words. I made him feel like less of a man. I made him feel that he wasnt needed or wanted in front of my friends. I put my hands on him. I damaged him. I dont want to be like that. I dont want to hurt him again. Because no one deserves abuse. Everyone deserves love so ladies becareful. Men becareful because you can lose a good person due to your abusive ways

Confessions of a bad girlfriend : i say things that hurt others

Matthew 12:36-37 

I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.

I use to break down my partner with hurtful words. Hurtful names. Say things that once they came out of my mouth I cant take them back. They really hurt people and dig deep to the core. But I just outburst. Then I end up with regret. My stupid mouth. Sometimes I wish I didn't say some of the things but I do..

I use to be a bad Girlfriend: I used Self harm to Manipulate 

manipulate

to manage or influence skillfully, especially in an unfair manner:

Mark 5:5

5 Night and day among the tombs and in the hills he would cry out and cut himself with stones.

I use to be abusive. I would use suicide and cutting as a way of keeping people around. Manipulation Because theyed feel bad if i hurt myself. For a long time i knew I was harmful. I knew i wasnt good for people so i stayed away.  I called myself rogue because everything she touched she damaged. Ive been afraid of hurting people. Im afraid that ill hurt some else if i get to close. Because of what i once did. I dont want to be that. I dont want to cause pain to other people because of my own issues. I dont want to be toxic. I dont want to us suicide or self harm to keep people around.  Because if not i have to stay away from people ill have to be alone. thats not fair to them

Confessions of a bad girlfriend I need to think before I act

1 Corinthians 10:13

13 No temptation[a] has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted[b] beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,[c] he will also provide a way out so that you can endure

Believe me I know from experience losing someone is not worth a hurtful word. Or abuse or manipulation.  You can break out of your cycle because once   someone's gone you will live in regret is it worth it?